Repressed Memories.......emo

So this series is for my staged photo class. I really want to start focusing on happy stuff but, i couldnt think of anything and got really down this past week for some reason, when that happens i get thrust back to my most unhappy time, so i did an exaggerated version of a familiar scene from my past, yeh im such a downer, no?

From a car show long ago

jus a shot of a dog....lol.

Edit

These are the more updated files of the last Post.

Mawd Album Shoot.

These are jsut edited in i photo, i dont have access to PhotoShop at the moment. But this is the fron and back of the album cover. Trust me it will look better than this lol. Neways. isnt he sexy? Ladies he is a taken man sorry.

A couple of shoots

Non of this is final jus some process work. The one of sami is at this mansion we shot for Location lighting, the same house that is depicted here also. The shots of me in the bath are for a conceptual narrative that im working on that i will put up here as soon as im finished, let me know what u think!!!

Friends...

hey all, we had a bit of an interesting weekend, i got a few interesting shots and wanted to share them. plus my email wouldnt send mawd the pics so this update is for him because his stupid yahoo email couldnt take the size of my files.....lol

The Key to this Bondage life is Wearing Your Heart Externally

this is for an alter ego portrait, i believe that life is an illusion and i am the magician, get you going in one direction and full u in the other. I chose to structure the images in a balancing composition rather than a flat out narrative order. this is feel leaves the piece balanced yet unresolved, what i here most about it is that the middle image is haunting or can be. Is the figure hanging there or taking off because he is finally free? I choose to leave the question open ended and let the viewer decide. This, i beleive leaves some uneasy feelings but atleast it made u feel something, comment if u dare lol please do!!

self portrait

at home during winter break

this is after a storm a while back

Weekend with Family...

Jus spent a few days with family in Orlando and had a pretty good time. There was a moment where i decided to take apicture of my Grandpa, the light was even the best or the circumstances didnt really scream take a picture of this, but all of a sudden i elt this moment needed to be recorded. I took the shot and starred to edit and decided it need to have a more aetheral look to it, something beyond what is usually seen by the untrained eye. So i decide this glass of water should play more of an importance in the scene, it could be the water of life or some sort of modern day magical potion but the real reason i had to edit it this way was something even beyond my own personal reasoning, the most interesting part is that they next day we all opened presents and my Aunts gave my Papa a lantern, a device to illuminate his world when it was dark to shed light on his life and possibly drastically change his circumstances, or it was as my brother explains in a way i didnt think about, Its that "Coinsidence is merely probability realized" i see it as something more in tune with everyones energy to the clairvointe state of possible pyschic ability, but who is to say that there is even a difference in the explanations?

A flash of light thats letting go....

I am utterly fascinating with the idea of perception over sight and cant decide whether one is more important than the other or if both exist. Try to comprehend light and seeing, actually what ever you do DONT try to comprehend sight or luminosity because you can blind yourself from and be stuck in ur own world 24/7 or are you already there?
I talk in circle and loop around the same notion, What i see a beautiful and magnificent another can find putrid and vial, ive given my self a headache racking my brain in analytcal thought and the final destination is that living in the current moment is the only possible way to not drive your self eternally insane. so the choice is whether u choose not to analyze and live in ignorance? The blades came over again and this existential blender continues to mesh our brains a pulp, drink it down a digest your own thoughts from an out side perspective and maybe an answer will arrive, but do u really want the questions to be answered?

Those Lights...in the sky!!

The moon will not look like this for a couple decades you can see venus and something else shining brighter than usaul. Its an awkward merge but i think it describes the scene and the time in which i shot it. Enjoy!!

Conversation with Danny

This image and a drive with sarah made me type this statement to Danny, i felt the image is perfect for dialogue.

11/27/08, 11:43 PM
Me:
Maybe its not fog we drove through,
maybe it was a river of souls begging to be seen.
The whistle in our ears was not the wind
but a single voice breaking the vessel of the spiritual world
Shattering the boundry between alive and awake
connecting us with the past.
Preparing us for what lies ahead.
11:45 PM
Danny:
in the wake of it all, what was it that we had planned, when vessels begin to fill, how much do we have left until it overflows
Me:
dare we drink from the black water?
Danny:
or shall we drown in the white air?
Me:
or shall we figure out a way to combine the two and make the spirits rain down apon our body, energizing us with the knowledge un fathomable until this storm arose
Danny:
for sometimes the calm is the turbulent and the breaking of the fog the truth, for when celestial figures align
will we still be who once were
11:50 PM
or who we regret we arent tomorrow?
Me:
maybe when the planet align and the moon is at its brightest we see the the past the present and the future mean nothing with out someone to share them with
planets**
what does it matter who we are, if there is know one to agree that we are what we have become, if there is no one present to see an individual progress is there ever really a development of character?
Danny:
if we rely upon others to confirm our beliefs in who we are than is there really and indivduality?
Me:
touche

Home

Took this last time i was at home. PLayed with the cars and stuff, maybe alittle too much much maybe not enough, im not sure about it. Any ideas are very much helpful.

more...

more from personal essay post

Personal Essay

This stuff is for a Personal essay for my Social Documentary class. I havent been to the graveyard cents we buried dad. I felt like i would spoil how important of a moment it was. It was damp and mucky and there were only a few of us there when the pastor begin to say what he said in such biblical importance. And just like in the movies as the pastor said " As i walk into the valley of...." thunder roars and the drizzle began to intensify. I wanted to save this as my last memory of him, but i realize now that although the hurt it cause me, losing him, is shared. I wasnt the only person to lose someone. i wasnt the only person to feel a gaping hole in my heart which can only be known today as a scar. My family shared this moment and i decided to confront what ever it was keeping me away from the graveyard. So i took an expert with me. I needed to rebuild a connection with Britt. She is one of my main inspirations now. She makes me want to try even harder. She is trully a stone in the cirle that protects me known as my walls. Thanks you Brittany!! thanks for being a sister that know one could even ask for becasue you so unique.

You know it seems that the only time man can finally organize him self into a perfect order of things is in a graveyard when he is dead. I dont know...

Logan.....being Logan(badass)

This is the first of many Veritcal panoramic style images i want to do. The beauty is that even if i have just a 10 megapixel camera this is comprised of many images which bring up my all over resolution, Basically I could print this image as big as i want. Especially taking into account that there are ways to expand an image loselessly. Im trying to play with the focusing and the size of objects in the frame. Idk, i like it and i want to do more.

Old vs. New

I forget where Frank and I were headed but he parked right behind this house. Something about the overgrown quality and the the boat give it an interesting feel. Im nto sure exactly why i like it or why i took the picture, but i took like 50 so i could photomerge them and get the perspective i wanted. Frank decided to shoot it as well, in the midst of my rapid fire shutter he causually got out his light meter and 120 film based camera and by the time i finish all my shooting he took one frame and out his camera away. I respect that in a way.

Beach...

i made dinner last night, The moonlight was so nice we absolutely need to go to the beach, the weather was perfect the amount of moonligh was perfect, the music was perfect the car ride was perfect. We could do that everynight and it would fit in perfectly. I am becoming more and more nocturnal. She like to fall asleep togethor, i usually abide by this then awaken and gaze at the glowing screen for a while. Im getting more efficiently productive in my workflow, everything is getting easier. Boy im really up or down huh? I geuss it makes for an interesting creative
process.

Alternate Reality...

There is more than one reality in this world or universe. The reality most commonly referred to is the one that we all subscribe to, the one where we all breathe air and feel the effects of gravity. What reality means more to humans? The one that we are all forced to subscribe to or the one that as individuals we put more of ourselves into? How many people do u think are sitting in front of a computer connected to the Internet right now? The more technology advances the easier it is to spend the majority of your time …..plugged in. A good example for what im talking about would be The Matrix Trilogy. A majority of the living human beings never even get to here the idea that this is a virtual world that they are plugged into. In the movie the ‘Real” world has gone to shit and now people are harvested by machines and never actually born, but plugged into a computer program, a virtual mockery of the world we all subscribe to now. My point is that “ who says which reality is most worth pursuing? Which reality will keep you living long a prosperous or short and terrible? The more that alternate realities like the Internet and videogames get easier and more instinctual to operate the more a divide is created in the species of man. The very thing we created to communicate more efficiently has or could be the very thing that divides us completely. A race of beings that only no contact through this electrical complexity known as a computer and a race of beings that know only the original senses that man evolved into having. Computer people and Pure people. I can see it all now…lol. The only way for this to work is if as individuals we figure out the balance between the realities that we are all apart of. I have a friend who admits flat out that World of War craft could have possibly ruined his life he wouldn’t have stopped playing. The more that he finds the balance between the reality that his imagination takes him into and the one we all see the happier he becomes.
Or maybe the ever-growing technological world is simply the new evolutionary level of man, maybe these alternate realities aren’t as dangerous as it may seem to us. Having millions of people subscribing to many different realities could really push the ideas of understanding the individual and collective perspectives. Maybe man will actually find a way to communicate even half way effectively.

....i dont know

These are more from my visual journal, i wonder if i can take a picture of someone or something and then forget about it. I think if i take a picture of something, if i put a viewfinder to my eye and pull the trigger its emplanted into my mind for ever....i dont know.

Portrait

I was editing this diptic and realized this wasnt my art. I set the camera up and I handed it to her but, sarah decided when to take the picture and what it would look like, in a way im just the retoucher...this is sarah art work. I love her, she could be just as good of or better of a photographer.....hmmmmmmm.

Images from my video for Digital Storytelling

These images are from a silent video i had to make for my Digital Story telling class, the sequence images are from stop motion excerpts and the head phones are the first shot of the video.
The video was to illustrate the feelings that i get whe n ilisten to music, i cant really explain with words how impactive music is in my life....hopefully my images will be able to do that some day.

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