Idea

so for a while i have been thinking about these multimedia type of gallery presentations that i absolutly have wanted to do, and a recent discussion has made my idea more relivent and doable, so this may be the first print thats used, really i just wanted show off this pic lol......i likes it

"How to" asignment:

Love
Basically, I wanted to give a “ how to” on love. I decided to do this by illustrating the classic children’s game of picking a part a flower and chanting “ she loves me, she loves me not, until finally the flower is empty and the decision is made. I feel this is a good representation of love how I see it. We pick each other apart furiously in every way shape or form until we have nothing but a huge mess of clothes and emotions, which is where a lot of relationships end, a dead flower. What people tend to forget about is that which grows from the mess we create. All the picking apart and fighting is simply us sowing our seeds and planting new ideas in each others minds, one thing/moment dies and gives birth to a new thing /moment, until eventually through the process of experience we realize that its not the results we are looking for its the fact that we are looking for them with each other.

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More Visual Journal entries

So i jus realized that this blogger makes everything alot less contrasty, so the final images look much better then how they are presented on the screen. My visual journal is going to pretty much be an autobiography, well i say that like its MY idea, but thats simply what a visual journal is a image of my life.

Visual Journal First

In my digital story telling class i have to start keeping a visual journal, should have done it a long time ago but no i have to so....here ya go

Sara takes really awesome shots sometimes, like she looks a certain way moves a certain way and the light on her glows and bam...a beautiful image......a a beautiful women.

First shoot in a while

Trying to get into the swing of things, this is my first shoot in a while, i had to shoot sarasota as i see it or what not, I dnt liek the people much i like being in the city when its late and knowone is around.

Hmmm

I havent written anything lately, i feel on the verge of a great idea but i just cant reach it, the words and images are swirling around just outside my feild of view and understanding, its 5 oclock in the mourning, im wide awake, this happens all the time, ill suffer the reprocutions tommorrow, but its worth it. There is a time at night quite late where the world is quite, where all the bad energy is asleep. My mind clears my body relaxes and i get alot of my hardcore thinking done, i have no priorities because no one is awake to remind me of them. Good thing she isnt a light sleeper, or maybe she jus pretends to sleep while i type way. Im going no where with this, as unconfuse and relaxed as i am i still cant seem to get my thoughts confined in one area of my brain enough to spout anything worth .......spouting.

Dock House

So i finally decided to get off my butt and gotake some pictures. This is the only successful of about an hour of shooting, maybe less. I have a bunch of conceptual ideas but i dont think i can really do them without being in the studio. I just wanted some feedback and what not about this shot.....yeh i know its a very cliche one, but every shot can be new and ground breaking lol, sometimes just pretty. I want to go back and shoot this again at a different time maybe do a panorama or something, i dont know, just felt good to get out and shoot. Talk to ya later!!!

3 of the haziest years...

I didnt sleep last night, just never got tired, or so tired that my body forgot how to act. I layed in bed with sarah for 5 or six hours, stairing at the moving colors half paying attention have listening to her snore. I used these mechanical extension of an arm to make my way to the bathroom and stood in the mirror for what seemed like forever, time froze, and for what felt like a eternity i stared at a person i didnt know. i tryed to figure out who this other person was and why he was staring at me. And at that moment i reckonized the person, its was my mother and fathers' son, my brother and sisters' sibling, Sarah's soulmate, and a friend to a bunch of really amazing peoplee who have yet to realize how amazing and impactful they are. He had hair like i thought i did, he had a nose like mine is, he had a plaid shirt like i did. After realizing this i realized i had no idea who this person was. And at that moment i didnt know who i was and what i was doing here. I was purely definable by the eyes of everyone but my self, lol my self, im not sure what that means. Is it okay to not know who you are? How concious are we? How much of this is really happening? I wanted the person in the mirror to say something, anything. Tell me that everything will be okay, tell me that the world wasnt going to shit, to tell me that everything happens for a reason. Its a tricky situation having and argument with your own pysche. Part of your brain wants to be completely literal and analytical and part of it wants to be in a world where anyone is capable of anything. The truth is, that it is all webbed togethor and life is the process of trying to untangle it all. I geuss thats what im trying to say. I feel like i am stuck in one of those really tricky parts of a tangle where you think " maybe ill just go buy a new piece of rope, or maybe i just cut it all apart then tie it back to togethor when its all sorted out. Look in the mirror after you read this. Give yourself and the person staring back at you ten minutes to soak it in. Try to see you the way you expected it to look, try to see the you you think everyone else sees. Realize you have no idea what you look like inside or out, when you do figure it all out let me know how, and ill call you my savior and ill know the answer to everything. Because the answers are inside of us, we are all just to afraid to ask the right questions. Where? Why? When? Just dont spend to long in the mirror. A man with two watches will never be certain what time it is.

Cant Sleep

This is the third night in a row.....i cant sleep. Sarah would say that my sleep cycle is off because i would stay up late then sleep all day. Can a person make themselfs nocturnal? Do people really need daylight? You know i have always been interested in Vampires. Walkers of the night. You know they say that when a Vampire bites you the sensation is better than sex.....yes people do look like they are in alot of pain when bitten by a vampire.....but........dont most virgins look alittle......in pain. Actually it is said that the person who is being bittens soul is intertwined with the biter. Maybe my mind is just telling me to become a vampire. Come to think about it i am not very fond of silver......or steaks...wooden. But i dont think i can give up garlic. No way!!! And blood doesnt taste that good......if you have ever tasted a penny then you know what blood tastes like.......and if who ever is reading this doesnt know what a penny or thier own blood tastes like then YOU ARE WAY NOT CURIOUS ENOUGH!! I almost swallowed a penny one time.....it freaked me out and i almost choked actually. I did how ever swallow the tab to a coke can........shit.............i hope that it made all the way through and its not gunna get lodged in some crazy area of my body.......I dont my tomb stone to say..........RIP James "One Coke To Many" or something funnier, that would sounded witty and sarcastic fitting with a soda pop thats right pop...theme..........Good Night!!!! Hopefully

The Weekend

Mawd and Carina came to visit this weekend. I really needed to see someone from home. Mawd has the most random one track mind process that is jsut fun to be around and Carina tells it straight and doesnt bullshit. They are perfect for each other. I think Sarah and I Just like being around other couples, you can have discussions that sometimes dont come up. Im not sure how to explain it. Here is a shot of the both of them chillin on the couch. i live the light that comes in through that window at that time.

There goes the summer

Sometimes we plan out exactly how the summer will go and the only way we will be happy is if it works out that way. Monday night pretty much secured that my summer will be anything but what i wanted it to be. I broke my foot. Logan jumped off the couch i caught him and snap. Not even a cool interesting story. Just two guys horsing around and a stupid step that resulted in me being a little depressed baby, because i hate not being able to do what i want when i want. Thank god i have such an amazing girlfriend. I feel so bad having to make her help me and i know she doesnt think of it as a job but i know she will get frustrated with me at some point. I just want to be surrounded with all my friends so they can make fun of me and tell i shouldnt ever drink alchol ever again. Pretty much this has been the worst 48 hrs. We were haven fun drink and bullshitting and then next thing you know im passed out in the upstairs bathroom covered in my own throw up.(naked) Fortunatly im not as insecure as i use to be. Thank god Logan and Sabrina are so layed back, they tryed to take care of me so sarah wouldnt have to be freakedout by all the puke. They really felt like parents. all i wanted was her though, i felt like thats all i kept saying" wheres sarah, wheres sarah!!" Neways i have a couple of really interesting months on the way, im hoping it will just force Sarah and i to get even closer. I dont know what i would do without her in my life. I would be lost and out of control with out her. She is my muse, my life, my lover, my care taker, my secret sexy witch in the novel that playsout in my mind. She has cast her spell and i willing let it take me over.

Couple of New Ones

self portrait in a window



The Last Days of Tori's Plant(its dead now!)

I have been feeling a little...lost lately. Well sense school ended i feel kind of liek i need to be do something. I geuss im getting the gene from my mom and grandpa. I jsut have to be doing something productive or i just dont feel right. But i also have a very lazy streak. it's quite competing. So i decided instead of going out and shooting, you know fresh air, the sun, i decided to back into the archives and see if i had any talent before i learned anything in the last couple years. I found a few photos worth editing. Here they are.

New Work.....End of Year thoughts.

Understanding In A Car Crash




I havent put anything new up in a while and i just finished Documenting my work from Alternative process class. My favorite one is the one etitled Understanding In A Car Crash. I illustrated one of my favorite songs called....well of course Understanding In A Car Crash. Its by the Band named Thursday. The song is about an experience the lead singer had when he was younger that i can kind of relate to. He was Driving in the car with his girlfriend/his love and his car was Tboned on her side of the car. She died and he has never recovered fully. And thats the idea, this bad horrible shit happens to us sometimes and alot of the time we never recover. We grow and we learn but your never the same person agian. After you get done reading this you'll never be the same person. Everytime you make contact with someone and they understand what your saying they will never be the same. Are bodies and minds go through a continious state of change. Think about it, you are not a solid, the matter in our bodies is simply made of microscopic atoms that are always in this crazy dance known as energy amd motion. Finding the balance is key to not repeating the same bad happenings from.....well happening all over again. We are both blessed and cursed with this thing called a memory. But we are also blessed with the ability to see the past in a differenet state of mind and make a bad situation a good one. Life is a constant problem solving game. What should i wear? How mood should i be in today? Diet coke or regular? We have a choice with how to deal with every situation whether it be in the moment or in retrospect. we have a choice whether to make or life positive experience. I knwo it sounds like im lecturing, well this is the only way i can lecture my self. This school year has come to an end and its Awesome and sucky at the same time. It means no pressure and deadlives but it also means lack of frined contact. The situation is awkward becasue im not sure how to feel. No school means more time with Sarah, Mom, Britt, Erik...and all my friends and family from home but it also means less sammy and alex and sabrina and all my frineds from school. The truth is i should stop worrying about it. I jsut have to get better at communicating not person to person. I plan on watching alot of movies and relaxing alot this summer. Recharge my batteries. I may take a small break from shooting and editing to get all my stuff organized and in line. Im sures theres more to say but....there always is but.....i got shit to do.

Google

Sarah decided for some reason to google my names. She typed: James Ryan DeL'Etoile
The result appeared to be number three on google. Thats pretty cool. Everyone uses Google. just needed to say that!

Concept of Time

These are for an assignment entitled " Concept of Time". I have many thoughts about time and the ideas in which dont exist enless time does. I could have done alot of cliche long exposure shots of traffic or something like ive always done. This idea kind of branches through a variety of time and time realated ideas. One shot is static and shows time been frozen the other shows movement and motion and the chaos in which TIME can bring. Time i believe is really ones point of view and understanding of the beginning and or end of something. One images show a living breathing REAL person, one who exists in the present, the second shows kind of the person starting to be absorbed into the chaos of life and love. Also, i tryed to give the images a vintage feel, I wanted them to be viewd in a Stereograph sort of way. Enjoy! Critique please!!

Picture A Day

Im going to try out and idea this summer. The official starting date has not been decided but, sometime after school ends I want to start a one picture a day. I tend to do my best work by walking, running, or driving around with sarah. I like to just find random naturally or man made events or things. I shoot them and then edit them to show the viewer how i see the world or that particular event in the world. Certain things i just find either very funny or just plane amusing that most people would just go by with out noticing.
Sabrina and I were walking back to class today and for no reason her Flip Flops just quit on her. They just decided that they didn't like her and more and she was stranded with one lonely sandal.






When I was leaving this morning I got alittle wierd/grossed out. Water was coming up through the man hole covers on our block. It was an interesting sight to see first thing in the morning. I didnt need coffee to wake me up. Just the smell.

Mornings

I really think that i am a nocturnal person. getting up in the morning is so difficult. I could swear the night before tha i am going to wake up and do a whole bunch of what not, when the time comes i reach over and hit the snooze button atleast 3 times. Is this another sign of procrastination? Or is it possible that humans are like animal some prefer to do there hunting in the heat of the day, some choose to wait till the sunsets and hunt in the blackness. Either way i am tired and cranky and i hate when people talk to much in the morning. Right now i think im cranky about pretty much anything, i really am just down with this semester, i wont be sad when it ends, its very challenging to keep the pace that i try to tell my self to keep. i feel that sometimes i expect to much of my self. Is that even possible, to achieve greatness one has to want it and work harder than everyone else who wants it as well, oh well this isnt making my morning better, I need caffine, I need a break.........

El Photo Grande

These are old Photos from the first ever completely student run show at Ringling. It's title " El Photo Grande" I got one piece in to this show. The people in these photos are Sarah Sammy Alex Josh Erik(Brother) and Mike. Erik and his roomate and his his roomates girlfriend came to the show then we all went out to dinner at Leroy selmons. This was all on the 23 of Feburary.

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Riverside At Night(duhh)

           These two images are the two images that i got into Best of Ringling this year.  Out of the 26 people who got pieces into the show 13 or them are sophmores from my class.  That says alot about my graduating class.  Last year i got one piece in and nun of my friends did sadly.  This year most of my friend and I got atleast one in.  They have given my class a lot more artistic freedom and i think it has worked. You can click on the images to view them bigger.

My First Blog

Hi,

  This is as the title suggests, my first blog.  I really want to use this program over others like LiveJournal or Myspace.  Cut out all the muss and the fuss and just write about my life my ideas and the things that piss me off probably.  I also want to able to share my art with my loved ones in an easier way.  Im always saying....ohhh you should see this or .....ohhh this new video came out great.  Well now I should be able to just say Hey, go to my blog and checkout my new stuffs.

    Other Stuffs:  Last night was the planitarium show that i was apart of.  The whole show lasted about 90 minutes. We ran it twice.  The second showing was to a crowd of standing room only.  it was a very surreal event.  Full dome video and imagery with live music performance and noise musicians along with magic tricks and and a supersoaker(we had supersoaker malfunctions).  Me and Sarah control the front stage projections.  two of the pieces envolved stop motion video that i made.  It was pretty hectic and we did it very low tech. but it all worked out and i think alot of people liked it.  I'll post the program and flyer as soon as i figure out how to do it.

Ps. Ima try to post a picture!